So I wake up this morning all motivated to spend a day round the house, tidy a few things, mow the lawn, you know - the normal day to day stuff.
Anyways I got dressed in denim 3/4 pants and a red singlet. I thought, excellent - time to take some photos of me wearing colour. No black to hide behind. So I take said photos.
Conclusion - I hate colour and I HATE the reality of what my outsides look like. Reality Bites HARD.
So because I'm a masachist (?) I have posted them on my photo page so everyone can see how bad the colour test photo results were...
I know in the long run it will be a good marker for me to track my progress but today it hurts.
I am honestly one of those people who thought they were quite normal, a bit chubby but more curvy not obese....until I caught a glimpse of my reflection. That alone could make me not want to leave the house. So the fact that I am brave enough to posts these photos is proving to be good for my accountability. How does someone who plays sport 3 nights a week become like this? Obviously I eat way too much of all the wrong things...Duh!
I need to be accountable for letting myself get like this. On the outside I am unrecognisable to me. I look at my reflection thinking 'this can't be me?' 'surely I'm not THAT big!'
I totally understand the concept of wanting my outsides to match my insides.
Well YES I AM. The time has come to be honest and accountable. I have let myself get like this and I will fix it. The band will be my 'side-kick' on my journey. My band will tell me when enough's enough. My band will not stop me making bad choices - only I CAN DO THAT.
I am ready - Bring it on!