Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Where did March go?

Holy crap I can't believe it's almost the end of March already.  I swear time is just zooming by and taking my warm weather with it :(  It's a nice sunny 21 degrees here today, so I can't complain but the temperature sure is dropping of an evening Brrr!

I have had a fill since my last update, a very very needed fill!  I had 0.2ml put in and I am definately noticing the difference :)  my scales are also noticing the difference which makes me happy :)  I have literally not been feeling like I need to eat food at all, however my brain still thinks it wants to and tries to, but after a couple of mouthfuls, its like "not going to happen" or "if I eat anymore this will end badly".  I am trying to listen to my body more times than my head but sometimes my head still wins - my head frustrates me!

I have pretty much been trying to meet my goals every week.  I have had struggles with the eating after 7pm goal until this last fill on Friday, since then it hasn't been a problem.  The other one I was struggling with was the 30 minutes of exercise.  My knee has started to feel good this week, so I am thinking about playing sport again - albeit taking it very easy.  I don't think I have done any major damage and the medication and compression are doing wonders.  I will of course strap the hell out of it when I play just to make sure!!!

The plan is to continue with my current goals and one additional goal - Drink at least 8 glasses of water per day.

I have always struggled with drinking enough water whilst I have had good restriction, but I think the problem was always my focus on the need to eat food not necessarily because I was hungry but because I would feel like I couldn't eat if I drank.  Well duh Kellie, I think that might be the point!! (light bulb moment!) lol

So sorry I keep forgetting to update regularly, but for some reason I struggle with time I just feel like I never have enough of it and when I do have spare moments I am literally chilling out reading a book!!

Keep up the great work fellow bloggers - you are all amazing!

Til next time :) 


Thursday, March 8, 2012

Knee and Goal Update

So I went to see the doc about my knee, turns out that I mis diagnosed myself in my quest through g00gle!  Of course I did!  It turns out that I have done something to my crucial ligament.  There is alot of localised swelling and I have been told to rest it at every opportunity, keep it taped (compressed) and I am on anti-inflammitories and panadol for the pain and swelling.  I am forbidden to play netball and basketball for up to 8 weeks :( which sucks but unless I want to risk a serious injury I am to follow doctors orders!!!

As for my goals

Goal 1:  No eating after 7pm

Fail!  I tried so hard to do this, but it turns out that Portia has decided to ramp up on the restriction during the daylight hours which makes it so hard not to eat in the late afternoons - early evenings.  This is something that I find strange considering up until last fortnight I literally had no restriction at all!

Goal 2:  Minimum exercise 30 mins for 7 days straight

Success!  Only walking (given the doctors orders) and aqua fitness - but exercise is exercise!!

Goal 3:  Do not stress the small stuff

Success!  It helps that I have decided not to care about work at all!  I have adopted the philosophy that I have to stop caring about the things that I have no power to change and accept that sometimes you just go to go with the flow.

Goal 4:  Stay away from the charity box at work

Epic fail!  Damn those charity chocolates but there is just no way I can resist those white fredd0 frogs!!!

All in all not to bad, but heaps of room for improvement.  I will keep the same goals just to keep up the momentum and hopefully I will be able to report success for all 4 goals :)

Til next time!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Dr Appt is booked and some goals

So I will find out what the go is with my knee.  I hope its nothing too serious, I would hate to be out of action as I need to shift some of this summer weight that has crept on me!  I have been all over the place with my diet lately, I don't know if its hormaonal, money stress or me just slipping back into bad habits.  There is certainly alot of negative energy around and I am trying so hard to to buy into it or be dragged into it.  I need to start focussing on the bigger picture and have small goals to achieve to help me get there.

Goal 1 - No eating after 7pm
I am a shocker for eating at night. Hopefully this will kick in my appetite for earlier the next day.... we'll see.

Goal 2 - Minimum excerise of 30 mins per day for 7 days straight
I have been using my knee as a good excuse not to exercise everyday. I have been doing my normal netball/basketball/aqua routine but I need to step it up and make it count everyday.

Goal 3 - Do not stress on the small stuff
I am finding the samll things at work are really irritating me. I don't know why but it's gotta stop!

Goal 4 - Stay away for the charity chocolate box at work!
Damn those charity chocolates - you feel guilty if you do and guilty if you don't!!!

I will report back next thursday to see how I go.

Monday, February 20, 2012

I think I have a miniscus tear :(

Which totally sucks, and at this stage is 100% self diagnosed!!

I have been on anti-inflammitory medications for approximately 2 weeks now with no signs of my knee getting better and so I thought I might give Goog.le a go to see if I could find out what the problem might be.  The prognosis is not good :(

The first treatment option listed is anti-inflammitories - they have not been working for me...
Second treatment option is cortisone injections and the third is surgery.  I wish I hadn't goog.led it but it definatley looks like a can't put off a doctors visit any longer.

Wish me luck!


Friday, February 17, 2012

Remember me..?

I used to be an active blogger - geez what happened?

So what's everyone been up to?  I have been tumbling from the band wagon ... absense from the blog scene definately makes the waist grow.  OK so it's not that bad, I have put on 3 kgs since mid December.  There are alot of things that have happened to aid this gain but the number one factor is me.  Me not exercising enough, me eating too much and me choosing to have fill out before Christmas!!

It was all going well until mid January, I was maintaining really well, then the portions slowly got bigger and bigger and being summer there is so many functions, barbeques and just plain old fun to be had!!

My next appointment is scheduled for 23 March, I am hoping to get in earlier for a fill but will have to call next week to see of there are any cancellations. 

I have missed reading your blogs and will be updating myself over the next few days.  I hope all is going well.

This is the year I plan to get to goal.  I need to re-focus and start working towards this. 

I will also be making it my aim to blog more frequently.  Accountability is the key!

Bye for now :)

Saturday, December 31, 2011


Happy New Year Everyone - Only 3.5 hours to go until the fireworks go off and we begin 2012 in my part of the world :)

I hope all of you have a safe and happy new year.

My goal for 2012 - get to my goal weight.  I got some work to do but I know with my band, my new exercise habits and everyones support I will reach it.

18kgs to go!

What is everyone else hoping to achieve in 2012?

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Wow! Christmas - what a ride it's been so far!!

Please excuse my lack of blogging - I have been very ... busy!  For some reason my days are just so full on lately that I haven't really had time to sit down and gather enough thoughts to post.

Let me start by saying that my Christmas has been pretty awesome.  Spending time with family is always great, and the kids eyes lighting up on Christmas Day are worth all the effort that us adults put into making it a special day for them.  I remember when Christmas just used to happen, I so appreciate my mum and family making it seem so effortless, having two kidlets of my own I now truly appreciate the effort they put into it each and every year!

Let me give you a quick Portia Update.  I had an appointment with Dr Tony on the 16 December with the intention of having a bit of fluid out for Christmas.  I went in, he asked how I was.  I said I wanted some fluid out.  He asked why.  I told him.  He said NO!!  He then told me that he wasn't comfortable with my reasons (to have a little rest over Christmas) and he asked me again what I 'needed' not 'wanted'.  I told him I definalty needed some taken out as I was having trouble getting real food in.  He abliged.  He took out .5ml instead of my requested 1ml and for that I am thankful.

He totally pulled me up on my self sabotaging behaviour.  I am so lucky that he is my surgeon for this exact reason.  I was subconciously (or slightly conciously) trying to sabotage my efforts.  A year on and I am still doing it to myself!  When will I learn?

So as for weightloss, it's all been pretty good, I am losing slowly but consistantly.  My exercise efforts have been pretty poor this last few weeks but I am struggling with motivation and having the kids on holidays is making it difficult to find the ME time I need to get it done.  I will be back on the exercise wagon ASAP.  I have also been indulging in one or a few too many iced coffees over the past week, but other than that all is rocking along nicely.

Being off work has been awesome.  I have to go back right after New Year's but I appreciate that I have been able to have a longer break than alot of people at this time of year.  Spending time with the kids has been good yet trying at times.  My daughter is really good at pushing my buttons so that has led to some trying moments but she's 3 so I can't hold it against her!!  Overall being home has been great.

I hope you all have had a lovely Christmas and have been able to spend quality time with those you love.  I will leave you a few pictures of my Christmas!!

Now it's time for me to go and catch up on all of your blogs!  I am looking forward to reading what each and everyone of you have been up to!

Have a happy and safe holidays!! :)