Friday, December 31, 2010
I wasn't prepared for the uncomfortableness it now is to eat. I was not prepared for how hard eating in a social setting would be. I wasn't prepared for how easy it is to revert to bad habits when these things happen.
Its not all doom and gloom though. I have lost 10 kilograms. Awesome!
Christmas dinner - The food was fabulous - I was going along well - tiny plate, lots of chewing, small bites....but I had hit some trouble with a baked carrot.... it wasn't pleasant and I am not sure why really but I got so upset that I just couldn't eat my lunch with everyone else. That was the first time I have really resented Portia.
I had a run of getting stuck and PBing once everyday for 4 days. I was hating it! The past 2 days have been really good (no PBs) but I am not exactly eating as good as I should be. The plan is to get back on track.
I am home with the kids for a couple of weeks, they are running me ragged!! But it is so much fun to be with them - hence less posting.
I hope you all have had a wonderful holiday and happy new year to all. 2011 is going to be awesome for me and I hope it will for you all too!!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
The kids had a ball this morning unwrapping presents, lunch is well and truly over and now I am stuffed and enjoying the silence that lots of new toys bring!
Hope you are all having a wonderful Christmas :)
Monday, December 20, 2010
Today was my first fill. I wasn't nervous, until he went to get the needle! Then I clamped my eyes shut until it was over!!! (Yes I am a big sook!)
Mum made the journey with me today as Charlie was at work. It also gave us a chance to shop, shop, shop!
I picked up a few Chrissy presents and then we headed to the surgery. The doc was running half hour behind so we decided to walk a couple of blocks and come back (I hate sitting idle waiting..) and then came back. We still had to wait 15-20 mins but it was heaps better than the possible 45 mins without the walk!
He called me in and asked how my first 5 weeks had been (wow - it's been 5 weeks already!), I confessed that I had been a little naughty and he asked me to get on the scale.
7.3kgs down since the surgery (according to me it's a little more but I'll take it!) as it was a good loss he didn't say too much about my naughtiness but did suggest I DO NOT eat and drink at the same time. I have been having trouble with this rule. It such a habit and its proving hard to break. I told him I will try my best and keep working on it.
So the moment came for the fill, I got up on the bed, he went to grab the needle and I clamped my eyes shut!!! He checked out the healed/ing wounds and felt for the port - he said all was looking well, asked me to do a mini sit up and he popped the needle in. Funnily enough I didn't really feel it too much - it was no worse than a blood test. He got the port first time (YAY) and then drained it out (just in case) and then put in 2.5mls.
After waiting a few minutes after a drink of water - I was right to go. How easy was that? Way easier than I expected! All done in less than 5 minutes :D
Next appt 29 January. Let's hope I have another good loss before then!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
The cake - a lady bug - made by moi!
My 2 gorgeous kids!!
She loves her new scooter - now she can ride with her brother instead of trying to steal his!
Happy holidays everyone!!!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I don't really have anything to write about but at one month down I am 7.5 kgs lighter and it is starting to feel amazing.
I am not noticing a change with my appearance as yet (see progress photos) but I am feeling different. My pants are feeling a little looser, my shirt's are not as tight, my feet are no longer full of fluid and aching at the end of the day.
I am thankful for all these subtle changes,and I know that this is only the beginning and its all going to be great from here.
PS I think I really need a fill!! My portions are increasing ever so slightly - 5 more days - I can handle that!!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I have news on the exercise front, I have stopped procrastinating and am heading to ZUMBA! I am FINALLY going to do it - Yes I am, ZUMBA - TONIGHT! I have conned mum into coming with me so it will be tonnes of fun. I am sure that I am going to keel over half way through, but I am going to give it my best shot! I am liking what others are saying about it and even though I'm not the most coordinated person, I hope that I can at least pick up on the basics. Hope!
Wish me luck! I will report back tomorrow how I go!
Monday, December 6, 2010
I have now lost 7 kgs total since November 15. That is awesome. I am very happy with my progress so far. I still have a lot (and I mean A LOT) of bad habits I need to break.
The first is: Farmer's Union Iced Coffee! OMG I am a total addict. There should be a support group for this!
Secondly, breakfast: I am not really feeling much hunger, but I'm not sure if it's because of the band or the limited food choices. I am struggling to even think about eating in the mornings. As it is now is 10.30am and I have drunk half a coffee. I just don't seem to have an appetite of a morning.
And thirdly, night time eating: Evenings is a whole new ball game. My previous bad habits of night time eating (just before bed) are very hard to resist. Last night I did laps from the lounge to the fridge opening it (you know, just for a look...) - I did this about 10 times, on the 11th I grabbed a bit of cheese. Oh its so difficult to keep resisting ..... bring on the 20 December when I have my first fill!
Ta-ta for now :)
Friday, December 3, 2010
I have never turned to tuna so much! Tuna really is a bandsters best friend. I am also loving the pumpkin soup but cause its now summer here I am not really 'feeling' soup right now.
This is my last week at home (yes, I was a big sook and took 3 weeks off work!) so next week will be very different for me. I will be packing my lunch (*cue gasp) yes that's right I will be taking my lunch. Its not something I have ever really been able to maintain but it will be out of necessity rather than that I really want to do it.
Any mushie lunch suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Weight-wise, I think since going onto the mushies my weightloss has stalled too. I am told that this is normal until I get my first fill - or maybe my 2nd or 3rd depending how long it takes to have an impact.
I feel as though there is no restriction at all at the moment and am finding I can eat more than the cup - or is ikt half a cup? - I am supposed to be eating. I am not getting stressed over this though. I know eventually it will start to come off and I am not going to add the additional pressure to my mind in questioning why it isn't coming off yet.
So I am still sitting at about 6 kgs down. I have literally lost this same 6kgs over the past 18 months - I couldn't even be one of those huge weightloss swinging yo-yos - not me it was about 5-10 kgs each time for me - the problem was that I would always seeem to gain a little more than I lost.
This time round I am confident that this will work for me. I am finding that I am more head hungry than anything. I am not physically hungry during meals but I still go to the pantry or the fridge - you know just to have a 'look' to see whats there. Everytime I conciously catch myself doing it I give myself a mental smack on the brain - stop that!
Hope you are all travelling well - the silly season is upon us - I still haven't put up the tree but I have promised the kids it will be tonight! They are so excited.
Well thats all. Hope you all have a lovely weekend - I have got way too much to do - including a 5th birthday and a baby shower to attend as well as a lovely brunch with some fellow bandsters - but it will be great!