Saturday, December 31, 2011


Happy New Year Everyone - Only 3.5 hours to go until the fireworks go off and we begin 2012 in my part of the world :)

I hope all of you have a safe and happy new year.

My goal for 2012 - get to my goal weight.  I got some work to do but I know with my band, my new exercise habits and everyones support I will reach it.

18kgs to go!

What is everyone else hoping to achieve in 2012?

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Wow! Christmas - what a ride it's been so far!!

Please excuse my lack of blogging - I have been very ... busy!  For some reason my days are just so full on lately that I haven't really had time to sit down and gather enough thoughts to post.

Let me start by saying that my Christmas has been pretty awesome.  Spending time with family is always great, and the kids eyes lighting up on Christmas Day are worth all the effort that us adults put into making it a special day for them.  I remember when Christmas just used to happen, I so appreciate my mum and family making it seem so effortless, having two kidlets of my own I now truly appreciate the effort they put into it each and every year!

Let me give you a quick Portia Update.  I had an appointment with Dr Tony on the 16 December with the intention of having a bit of fluid out for Christmas.  I went in, he asked how I was.  I said I wanted some fluid out.  He asked why.  I told him.  He said NO!!  He then told me that he wasn't comfortable with my reasons (to have a little rest over Christmas) and he asked me again what I 'needed' not 'wanted'.  I told him I definalty needed some taken out as I was having trouble getting real food in.  He abliged.  He took out .5ml instead of my requested 1ml and for that I am thankful.

He totally pulled me up on my self sabotaging behaviour.  I am so lucky that he is my surgeon for this exact reason.  I was subconciously (or slightly conciously) trying to sabotage my efforts.  A year on and I am still doing it to myself!  When will I learn?

So as for weightloss, it's all been pretty good, I am losing slowly but consistantly.  My exercise efforts have been pretty poor this last few weeks but I am struggling with motivation and having the kids on holidays is making it difficult to find the ME time I need to get it done.  I will be back on the exercise wagon ASAP.  I have also been indulging in one or a few too many iced coffees over the past week, but other than that all is rocking along nicely.

Being off work has been awesome.  I have to go back right after New Year's but I appreciate that I have been able to have a longer break than alot of people at this time of year.  Spending time with the kids has been good yet trying at times.  My daughter is really good at pushing my buttons so that has led to some trying moments but she's 3 so I can't hold it against her!!  Overall being home has been great.

I hope you all have had a lovely Christmas and have been able to spend quality time with those you love.  I will leave you a few pictures of my Christmas!!

Now it's time for me to go and catch up on all of your blogs!  I am looking forward to reading what each and everyone of you have been up to!

Have a happy and safe holidays!! :)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

My 35kgs down present to myself!

Here is my present to myself for losing 35kgs!!  I love it!

Each of the critters represent myself, hubby, my son and my daughter - and like this tattoo I am crossing my fingers that the weight lost is also permanent!!!!

It is all free-hand from a dodgy hand drawn picture (drawn by me) that I brought in - I just said make it look awesome - and he did!  The tattooist is a true artist - amazing :)

Oh and the countdown is on for my pre-Christmas unfill!!  10 days to go :)

Thursday, December 1, 2011


A montage of my journey thus far :) I hope it works!!

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Sunday, November 27, 2011

The year that was...

OK I promised and here it is, my extended 1 year post op blog post.  Better late than never!

Why did I choose surgery:
Well I was a skeptic at first....yes you read that right.  I was so skeptical I wasted at least 5 years of potentially being a healthy weight.  I tried all the diets, fads, pills, shakes, programs etc, but I always felt like a failure when I just couldn't sustain the lifestyle.  Then I used the excuse of wanting children.  Why get skinny now just to get fat again (?) OMG how stupid do I feel now for that excuse.  I made the final decision to have surgery when my youngest was nearly 1 and I just could not control my weight, no matter what I did  I always ended up bigger.

Why I chose lap band:
I chose lapband because it was considered less risky than the other surgery options.  I liked they idea that my organs were going to stay the same, there was no internal chopping going on etc.  I am a bit sooky when it comes to surgery so from all the options this seemed like the perfect choice for me.  I also looked up lapband on the internet and found all these amazing blogs about people, just like me, who struggled and found a solution.  After reading them I just couldn't wait to have it done.  I researched my local surgeon options and picked a surgeon who I felt was just right for me.

What I have learned so far:
SOOOOOO much!!  How do I even capture everything... OK so the first thing I have learned is that everyone's experience with the lapband is an individual experience, although we all may have similiarities each and every one of us has something new to bring to the mix.

The most important thing is that I no longer 'hate'on myself.  So I feel like a chocolate - I have one.  I no longer feel guilty for making that choice. 

Exercise needs to be a part of my life.  I choose to exercise more.  Not because I have to but because I really enjoy it.  To be honest the lighter I get the more I enjoy it.

People can be judgemental.  I am not secret about my lapband but in saying that I do not shout it from the rooftops either.  I love my band, but not everyone needs to know I have it!

Before and now:
Before I was unhappy with myself, now I am learning all about this new person I am.  I haven't changed (much) but I have certainly changed my perception of myself.

Before I was addicted to food, now it is somewhat controlled and I am learning new ways to deal with my emotions rather than medicating with food.

Before I was 132kgs, now I am 95kgs.

Before I was a size 24-26, now I am a size 16-18.

Before I was out of control, now I am in control.  I literally use to just shovel food into my mouth, now I think about every  bit of food that passes my lips.  I need to think about every piece.  If I don't I could end up in a very embarrassing situation!!!

Best Things:
Smaller healthier body
Unexpected Friendships
Self worth
Keeping up with my kids :)

Worst Things:
Having to think about every single morsel of food that passes my lips
BP experiences and the slime :(
ummm... that's pretty much it!!!

Would I do it again if I had to:

Best advice I can give:
Do your research BEFORE you have the surgery.  Know what you are in for, talk to real people who have had it done, DO NOT expect your experience will be the same and most importantly DO NOT COMPARE yourself against others who have had it done - as they say individual results will vary!! :)

My year in pictures:

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

One year today!

Guess who is turning 1?
That's right - PORTIA is!  Happy Birthday Portia :)

Happy bandiversary to me, happy bandiversary to me
35 kilos I have lost,  how great it is to see!!! 

Yummo!  That cake looks awesome (too bad I can't eat cake now - but I can try the icing!!)  Oops I am getting distracted!  I had all these plans in my head about all the awesome stuff I will be able to write on my one year post but for the life of me it's not coming to me now, who knows maybe I will wake up and remember the post I was planning at like 3am in the morning!!  I will jot a few things down (so I remember them) and will give a more in depth evaulation of my first 12 months with Portia.  I was even planning to do the photo re-enactment that Joey did to show the then and nows.  Watch this space!

Monday, November 7, 2011

It's almost a year in...

I can't believe that in around a week's time it will be one full year since my surgery.  I am so thankful to myself everyday that I was strong enough to be selfish enough to do this surgery. I can honestly say that I have no guilt whatsoever at this point in time.  It has taken me a long time to reach this point, especially since it was a considerable financial cost.  Best. Decison. Ever!

I went to the beach with some family and friends yesterday and I was uploading the photos on my computer and thought it would be fun to do a quick comparison since the last time I went to the beach, which was in January.

 I amazed by the difference!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

So I have kinda been AWOL lately ...

Sorry about that :/

I have not been completely gone - I have still been browsing, reading and even commenting on your blogs at times but when it comes time to actually write a blog, I get stuck for words.

I have tried to analyse the causes for this hiatus.  I am still losing weight (allbeit slowly), I am not feeling paticularly crappy for any reason, I am not hiding deliberately - maybe I am a turtle blogger.  I pop my head out every now and then say hi and give a bit of an update then I go back in my shell when I feel like I have nothing of substance to contribute.  I didn't even take many family snaps this month, so I couldn't even just fill a picture post to compensate my lack of words.

I have a full on couple of months coming up.  Starting with a beach visit this long weekend, a baby shower, then my son Xavier's birthday party, two other kids birthday parties we need to attend followed by numerous Christmas get togethers, my daughter Acadia's birthday party 3 days before Christmas and then Christmas and New Year festivities.  I don't know how I am going to get through it without going insane.

I must admit - I am not looking forward to the festive season.  In fact I am starting to really hate all holidays that involve consuming food!  Don't get me wrong - I love portia (my band) to bits but on special occasions I kinda wish she would take a few days off!!!  I am thinking of cheating and keeping the fill level I have now - which is on the tight side - up until mid December and then have a bit taken out over the holidays to accommodate a more food-friendly experience.  Don't judge!! lol


Sunday, October 30, 2011

Latest Comparison Pics :)

Because I am a total slacker and my words aren't working for me lately I thought it best just to put up some comparison pics.

This is the difference 11 months post op (less 32kgs or 70 pounds give or take)

Sunday, October 9, 2011

What I've been up to lately

So while most of you fabulous people were living it up in Chicago, this is what I did:

We built a new front fence!!!

I am so excited.  this is the first ever big project that we have ever tackled and I think it looks pretty awesome.  All we have to do now is put and exterior varnish on it to protect it from the elements.

I have really enjoyed reading all of the Chicago posts.  I really wish I could attend one of these but unless we win lotto it's unlikely :(  for now I am just going to have to settle for your pictures and just imagining I was there!!!

I have been feeling really flat lately, I am not making the best choices food wise which isn't helping but I am heading back to work tomorrow so I am hoping that I will get back into a routine.  I have had the past week off and it has been amazing :) but not so amazing for my weight loss!

I was very impressed with my exercise this week.  I could have slacked off but I didn't I kept up my routine.  I did aqua fitness on Tuesday, mixed netball on Wednesday and Thursday because I didn't have basketball I threw in another aqua fitness class!!  At the moment I have only really had enough time to do planned exercise 3 nights a week.  I know I am going to have to bump that up in the near future but with both kids, working full time and trying to keep up with the household chores it gets a bit much.

Til next time :)

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Double Digits!!!

I finally have seen the scale in double digit mode!  I am super excited!!!  It is still boucing up and down daily but the fact that I seen the scale reach such a low number has really inspired me to believe in myself more.

Last Friday I actually had an unfill of 0.1ml cause I was just so darn tight I was curdling milk in my stomach :( not nice at all!  Since the unfill I had a brief 'On my goodness I have to eat eveything in sight' experience but finally that has now past and I am getting back into a place where I am eating solid foods in better quantities.

For all you lovely ladies attedning BOOBS have an awesome time and know that each and every one of us who can't attend is JEALOUS bigtime!!  Travel safe and keep the good-time pics coming :)

Monday, September 19, 2011

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Picture Post :)

Well I didn't get round to doing my 'regular' kind of progress pics today but here's a few I have taken over the past week or so :)

(mirror shot - sorry about the quality!)
(ready to go out to an engagement party)
(ready for work)

And here are some beautiful shots of my most favourite people in the world - my kids :)