I spent 30 minutes just looking at my wardrobe this morning! Can you believe it 30 minutes!! I was standing there in mothing but a towel thinking ..hmmm what can I wear today?
Its so frustrating to me that the most simpliest of everyday tasks (getting dressed) can be such a time consuming emotional experience for me. I know it's worse a the moment (pre-op binge + TTOM = Major bloatfest) but its like waking up and hitting a brick wall.
I put on and took off the same shirt about 3 times and chose my elastic (forgiving) fat pants. Suffice to say today I am wearing hed-to-toe black. Black is my fallback, its the nice place I can go to when colour hates me. Colour makes me look twice as big.....or is that some warped perspective I have developed? I'm not sure.
In my official before photo I am (you guessed it) all in black - I think I will take some wearing colour and post them to get a comparison.
Suregery: 4 weeks to go... it can't come soon enough!
Home/Work: I am in the process of trying to de-clutter. I am de-cluttering my house, de-cluttering my garden and de-cluttering my desk at work!! I am even de-cluttering the car!!
Here's hoping that all this de-cluttering, de-clutters my bloody head!!!!
Until next time..