Friday, April 15, 2011
Scared and hormonal!
I am still scared that I am going to fail. It has been playing on my mind since I decided to go ahead with the surgery. This is the first time I think I have ever written it down for the world to read. I was inspired by the YouTube video that Lap Band Girl posted today. That guy had a lot of good solid advice. I am choosing to take with me 2 main suggestions. Document my journey. Good and bad. I want this to be an honest account of how this process is affecting me, how it is changing my perspective, how it is changing my view on life. I don't particularly want to document what food I eat everyday etc, but from time to time I will certainly check in to how I am assisting my band with nutrition. The second thing is photos and measurements. Today is 5 months post op. It's gone fast and I feel like I am not achieving the results I should be. I then have an internal debate about my progress being good enough. In my head I know it is ok but my heart knows that I can put in more effort. I will be taking my monthly comparison pic tomorrow and will also do some measurements and update them on my blog. OK so before I let out all my hormonal frustrations I will leave you on a positive note - I felt skinny today. I know I am not skinny but today I FELT skinny. That's an achievement in itself!!!