Is it just me? But ... Wow the time seems to be flying! Not long now and it will be the day before. So much is happening in my life right now. I just hope that I have enough time to prepare myself for this new and exciting and scary and and and ... change in my life. I have been reflecting on a lot of things in my life lately mainly work, but sometimes the personal stuff does creep in there.
Anyway the main thing I have been thinking about is 'Am I really ready?' Don't get me wrong I have waited 12 months now and have been contantly thinking about what things are going to potentially be like etc, but am I REALLY ready to make those changes? Am I willing to eat a piece of fruit instead of a biscuit..Am I ready to get up off the couch and go for a walk...
The truth is I HAVE to be. I owe it to myself, I owe it to my family, hell I even owe it to my dog Daisy! I keep having to remind myself that I do deserve this. I do deserve the opportunity to get healthy. I NEED to be a little selfish so that I can be a better wife, a better mother, a better friend.
I was looking in my wardrobe the other day and there are sooooo many clothes, in so many differnt sizes. I need to do something about this. It is so frustrating when you go to get dressed and you have a wardrobe full of clothes you either can't fit into or they do fit but you don't feel comfortable when wearing them. To be honest alot of my clothes are just not .. ME! I have either bought them because they fit or because I was having a 'good' day and thought they looked good when I tried them on at the store! How many times have we thought this!!! ;)
On a positive note I am meeting with a group of local 'bandsters' this weekend and am really looking forward to it.
Until next time!