Halfway - Am I really here???

Oh my goodness, without realising it I am now halfway to my weightloss goal!! Halfway there! I never even imagined I would be typing a post with this title. I used to read everyone's blog's where they announce they are halfway or at goal and I would always think to myself - God I wish that was me!!

To anyone reading this post who suffers from self doubt (especially when it is weightloss related) you can do it. I am living proof that the impossible can happen. I am still sitting here in shock!

I am going to shake things up in the land of Kellie. I really need to work on toning this body of mine. Generally speaking I am pleased with how my body has held up, especially given the abuse I had put it through. I am most unhappy with my belly (as you all can imagine) I am a mum of 2 and my belly was no rubberband before I feel pregnant - I stretched that belly out way before I even contemplated having children.

Looking back I am so angry with my self for letting myself get that bad. I have been sifting through some old photos and to be honest I no longer like to think of that person as me. I know that sounds really horrible and all but it makes me really sad to look at the pain behind the eyes of that person. She looked so .... helpless.

Thank you lapband for helping me feel in control. I know I have my days where I curse you, but I know that I would not be the person I am today without your help.

And now I leave you with a face comparison picture - please excuse the dark circles!!!

9 month comparison pics as promised!

OMG! Is it really August 16 already??? Where has the time gone?

Yesterday was my 9 month bandiversary. I took some progress pics which I will post later tonight. I didn't last very long without stepping on the scales :( but on the up side I am down another kilo, so I am enjoying the loss.

TOM is in town later this week so I am having real trouble with a tight band - Portia gets super bad PMS and makes it nearly impossible for me to eat leading up to that time so I am not a happy camper at the moment.

I am so excited - I brought a couple of cute cardigans that were and Aus size 16!!!!! How awesome is that!!!!! I'm not sure what that converts to in American - it's amazing for me, however the bottom half is still an 18-20. I definately have a booty on me.

I am in the process of catching up with all your wonderful blogs - You are all doing an amazing job and should be proud of the effort each and everyone of you are continuing to put in every day.

I'm off to play netball shortly - so I hope you all have a good night :)

Xrays

So I had an appointment with Dr Tony last Friday. All is progressing well - according to his scales I am down 23kgs and he is happy with my progress. I did tell him that I had been getting a lot of shoulder tip pain of late and not always due to eating etc. He checked out my shoulder and asked me to have some xrays just to make sure Portia (my band) is siktting perfectly in position. I went for the Xrays Monday but forgot to call his office to let him know, so I finally did that this morning. I am not worried, I think Portia is all good, I just think it may be referred gas pains. He should le me know soon enough.

And for some reason I am having trouble following some newbies blogs - the follow button just doesnt appear on my browser... it's weird maybe I might try another computer.

And finally .... TGIF!!!!

August = Forced Scale Free Month

For any of you that have been reading my blog for a while you will know that I am THE scale whore of all time. There's pretty much no other way to adequately describe it. I simply can't stay off them. And now, they're broken :( First I thought it was simply a used up battery but I have replaced the battery and they still DON'T freaking work - Grrr! Scale says no! I am not willing to simply buy another scale - well beacuse this one is only 6 months old - and well pretty much I am a bit of a tight arse when it comes to non-essential household items - oh shit, has my scale become an essential house hold item? No. I don't think so, but maybe?

ARGH! How am I going to cope? I simply can't go on....can I?

Well I am now into day 3 without a scale check and guess what? I AM OK! Yes I am OK. Not only am I just OK, I am surviving, I haven't even gotten into a panic. I haven't even cheated yet and gotten out the Wii Fit.... Amazeballs!!! (By the way I stole that from Amy W and use the word nearly every single day!!) Say it with me now AMAZEBALLS!!!!

I will admit that I am a little scared to go without a weigh in .... I mean how will I know I am going OK. The truth is I won't know and I am willing to challenge myself to go the distance. No weigh in for this little duck until the last Sunday in August - just so I can keep my stats page updated and in check ;) oh did I mention I might be a tad bit OCD?? lol

Wish me luck fellow weight loss troopers!!